The Hindu saint, Anandamayi Ma says “Everything becomes smooth once the blessing of HIS touch has been felt.” She uses the word HIS, to demonstrate her complete surrender to the omnipotent Spirit; which of course is beyond male and female. “It is just as when bathing in a river, one at first swims by one’s own strength; but once caught in the current, whether a good swimmer or not, one is simply carried away.” The current is the life force circulating throughout our bodies, we experience it as seeing objects, feeling sensations, hearing sounds, and thinking thoughts. It’s also flowing like a river throughout all of creation. The current is vast boundlessness itself; the center where we experience it as located in our body, actually has no center at all. The appearance of a body is only a fleeting expression of the boundless current.
The blessing of HIS touch is the grace of the Supreme Reality of this moment, of all moments. HIS touch is THIS touch, the aliveness we are always bringing to THIS moment. This touch is the constant flowing current of our experience, the continual arising and dissolving of our seeing, hearing, feeling and thinking. When we are willing to receive THIS touch, all moments are seen as this moment, and all moments are seen as our moment. As Thich Nhat Hanh says, ‘then we know this moment is a wonderful moment, full of wonder.’
He has a song:
The River is Flowing, Flowing and Growing,
The River is Flowing, Down to the Sea
Oh Mother, Carry Me, Your Child I Shall Always Be
Oh Mother, Carry Me, Down to the Sea
Our Mother is the mother of all creation, delighting in the recognition of herself in our lives. For she so loved the world that she gave us life to delight in the recognition of her light of love. This light of love is the light that God gave Christ in giving his only son. We are his only sons and daughters, for he so loved us that he gave us to the world, as he gave the world to us that we might realize our oneness with him. If we have not yet felt THIS touch, we need to dedicate to God whatever inclinations or disinclinations we have, and devote ourselves to service, meditation or contemplation. We need to deeply commit to asking for this touch by opening to our true nature, and going beyond the confines of discursive mind in our deep asking.
When the movement of our true nature is surrendered to, when we’ve allowed ourselves to be swept into and carried away by the current of THIS touch, the knots of resistance will begin to be loosened and our impurities simply fall away on their own. Meditation on our breath can be a powerful way to allow ourselves to become intimate with this process. Our breath is powered and expressed by the current of THIS touch. Our breath carries healing currents of energy, sweeping away our attachments to discursive thinking. Zen master Kwong Roshi coined the phrase ‘Breath sweeps mind.’
Then the world of sense delights, of excessive attachment to our desires and fears, lose their allure. We begin to be able to see them as they really are, without own being, other dependent, and free of what we think about them. The further we travel on the path, we will continue to be tested, sometimes tested with seemingly more powerful tests. But more and more, we sense HIS touch there as ineffable support, right in the middle of the pain of desire or fear.
There is then a more willing attitude of offering our pain to the current. We learn to rejoice in allowing the pain to be swept into and carried away by the current of our true nature. We will at some stage realize this is always already happening. But we’ve been too busy ignoring the flow of the current with our self centered preoccupations. We’re preoccupied with our little container of self, held together by attachment to desires and fears, so we don’t notice this.
Being willing to continually take the first step, the first step into the flow of the current of the river of our true nature, will open the way for us to receive THIS touch. We will realize that we are unconditionally welcomed into this river. The dissolving of experience of our very concept of separate existence is a free gift offered unconditionally to us. When we realize our whole life is always welcomed unconditionally, we will learn to welcome all of life unconditionally.