Our Spirit of Wanting to Know

Our spirit of wanting to know, inquiry into the actual substance of reality, of consciousness, expresses our deepest devotion to the mysterious presence of life. It’s a vast mystery, because who or what wants to know can’t be separated from reality, can’t be separated from consciousness itself. In all of the many contemplative paths, we’ll never find an actual entity that defines who we actually are. We discover this in our contemplative practice of asking, ‘where or what is actually asking the question’? One way to articulate this is to say our wanting to know our true self, is revealed as the aliveness of wanting to know. Whatever we are that thinks we are a separate being, we are alive. And we simply can’t trace this aliveness, this current of energy, to anything other than the presence that is always right here, right now. It is the aliveness of the present moment, now, and now, and now. As human beings on the spiritual path, we learn to open up to a fascination with what is this presence? How can there be relief of suffering? Can we cease making demands on this presence? Can awareness itself provide love, and compassion? The willingness to surrender, and let spirit consume all or our ideas about who or what we think we are, is a deep inquiry into these questions.

Thich Nhat Hanh says everything we need to be happy is already right here in the present moment. This means all the wisdom, all the bliss, all the most intense pleasures and pains are all ours here in the present moment. And it means that if we allow the flow of all these experiences to arise and dissolve as they always do, they can’t interfere with our happiness. Letting go of our restless thoughts and feelings, allowing them to be absorbed by the present moment itself, is trusting this aliveness of spirit to purify and transform our experience. It is learning to trust that in reality, the reality of the present moment itself is enough to relieve all suffering. The Buddha’s great teaching is that clinging to experiences of being separate, is our resistance to things as they actually are as expressions of the present moment. We don’t realize right here, right now, is always enough. This is because of our deep conditioning to struggle with and shape the present moment to how we think the present moment should be better than how we experience it right now.

True freedom is always right here and now. The present moment is free. It is the flow of our experience, and this experience is always flowing freely. Any ideas we have to the contrary are simply ideas, ripples on the surface of our being, on the surface of the present moment. Thinking things are bound and confined, is only thinking things are bound and confined. Ripples of thinking on the surface of being are expressions of the present moment as the expression of freedom. This is so because they freely arise unaffected and unconditioned by any imaginary entity or experience. The ultimate cause of everything will always remain a deep mystery. Freedom and the present moment arise together. Thay has a saying: the world of suffering and discrimination is filled with the light of the rising sun. And the rising sun is the expression of freedom. We, as we actually are, are the expression of freedom. We arise as our experience arises, and it is all arising freely as the present flow of awareness, as the present flow of spirit. Surrendering to this flow, we begin to feel lighter, spontaneity begins to replace labored deliberation. Freedom in expressing our emotions emanates from a spacious place in harmony with and compassionately embracing our environment. We learn to embrace others as we embrace the moment. We learn to embrace others as expressions of the moment, which is always embracing us.

6 Responses to Our Spirit of Wanting to Know

  1. Prajna Ana May 26, 2015 at 1:43 pm #

    Enjoyed this Roger. A very beautiful prose. Thank you for sharing.

  2. Shokai May 26, 2015 at 3:22 pm #

    Roger, wonderful post, as usual. I tweeted one of your lines from it and a link to the post. Hope you get a hit or two from it.

  3. Piro Papa May 26, 2015 at 6:55 pm #

    The ultimate cause of everything will always remain a very deep mystery .Very well said Roger that’s where my piece reside and draws strength.
    Keep on writing brother your messages are needed I am looking forward for your next blog
    I love you

  4. kimberly May 26, 2015 at 7:32 pm #

    I love the quote “Ripples of thinking on the surface of being are expressions of the present moment as the expression of freedom.” In simpler words -ripples of thinking are expressions of freedom. Your thought processes are so new and refreshing – they startle me out of my entrenched patterns. Thank you again for your clarity and insight. Be well and happy, Kimberly

  5. Roger Hawkins May 27, 2015 at 9:03 am #

    Thanks Kimberly, I really like your simpler version; ripples of thinking are expressions of freedom. Things aren’t what we think they are. Not only that, they are free
    of what we think they are. The absence of what we think about things, is the way they really are. What a challenge to talk about this, without too much thinking! lol.

  6. Roger Hawkins May 27, 2015 at 9:09 am #

    Thanks Piro,

    We keep on opening to the mystery on what seem like deeper and deeper levels, sensing
    mystery and freedom are welcoming us from right here and now.

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